When confusion sets in…

  Currently sat at my desk at work, my mind running a thousand mph with all the possible ideas of what my next job role should be. Whilst I’m certain about my career as a psychotherapist I’m currently confused with what jobs to apply for now whilst I study and raise my children. Being out of full time employment for almost 3 years has knocked my confidence in the workforce back for 10. My last place of work left a[Read more]

Social Media Detox

                                                                               10:18am and I just woke up. I got woken up by an important phone call but to be honest I needed to wake up. Usually, when I wake up, my first action is to search for my phone, switch on my internet data/WIFI, wait for any incoming messages and notifications then scroll through snapchat, Facebook and Instagram aimlessly… This is usually followed by dragging myself out of bed and attending to my boy’s, or getting[Read more]

Journey To Self-Love

Every morning, write down three or more things you are grateful for. By doing this you are raising your vibrational energy with the universe and with yourself. You are showing appreciation for the small and big things that you have or may not have yet and being thankful for the abundance of positivity that comes your way. You may begin to realise how blessed and how rich in health and wealth you are and your faith in humanity may be[Read more]

Could you tell if you looked at me?

You don’t look like someone who suffers from depression,  I would have never known! I’ve known you for so long and all this time I never knew But you always seem so fine Since speaking openly about depression and I’ve had a range of responses ranging from shock, upset, worry and relief. Its been interesting to notice the reactions from friends, acquaintances and strangers. Some people have been saddened and have apologised, others have felt relieved to know they aren’t[Read more]

Are we our brother’s and sister’s keeper?

Reach out when someone you know becomes silent, you just may save someones life. If a friend/family member/coworker tells you they are “fine” but you don’t believe them, trust your instincts and let them know. It’s not always easy for people to speak up when they aren’t alright but you just may be the person they finally let their guard down with… Dont assume that just because someone has family/ a partner or friends that they are well supported.  If[Read more]

Am I allowed to be lazy?

See, when I was pregnant with my first child, I read all the books about parenting and pregnancy and watched every single episode on home and health about labour and raising children in their early years. Nothing, NOTHING, truly prepared me for what it actually meant to be a mother. Now I’m not going to sit here and mull over all the moments that have made me sit and ponder about the times I have wanted to give my children[Read more]

My inner saboteur

  DANCE OPPORTUNITES… “I’m not good enough” JOB OPPORTUNITIES… “I am not worth the pay they are offering” or “I’m worried I won’t suit the person specification” NEW ADVENTURES… “I’m too scared to take risks” My inner Saboteur; my arch nemesis, my dark side, my evil twin. The amount of opportunities I have let slip right through fingers or not even considered some all because I was too afraid to let myself shine and never felt worthy of anything amazing.[Read more]

This time last year…

On mothers day last year I was in one of the worse states I had ever been. Nothing and no one could shift my mood or make me feel better. I stayed in my bed and shut everyone out including my partner and children. That day was one of the key moments in realsing how bad my depression had reached. For me to not want to see to my children was a true sign that something wasnt right. With that[Read more]

Smile, it’s easier.

Friend: “How are you hun?” Me: “I’m alright thanks, you?” …because its easier to just say i’m fine than to explain what I’m really feeling. The best way to describe what depression (for me) feels like: I get easily annoyed and irritated by the slightest turbulence (When I’m at my lowest) I feel nothing. “Meh” and “numb” are the best words for this feeling. I push people away who try to show their support. I can’t think straight, make my[Read more]

Reflecting Reflecting Reflecting

Currently reflecting on my past, present and future. friendships lost or diminished, jobs I have left and opportunities I have missed all because of two things; lack of balance/timing and low self-worth. As much as people like to assume that I am confident within myself and sure of who I am, the truth is, I am not and I do not. I have always lacked the knowledge of finding the right balance when in friendships, finding a healthy work and[Read more]