Could you tell if you looked at me?

You don’t look like someone who suffers from depression,  I would have never known!

I’ve known you for so long and all this time I never knew

But you always seem so fine

Since speaking openly about depression and I’ve had a range of responses ranging from shock, upset, worry and relief. Its been interesting to notice the reactions from friends, acquaintances and strangers. Some people have been saddened and have apologised, others have felt relieved to know they aren’t alone and some have been taken by surprise and not known how to react.
First and foremost, I would like to say that just because I battle with depression it does not mean I am fragile, or hide away all day everyday in a cave in the dark not wanting to see the world. I still go out and socialise, I meet with friends, I have a laugh and do all the things I would normally do. Sometimes, however, my thoughts get the better of me and I isolate myself from the world either because im feeling drained/lethargic or im overwhelmed with emotional feelings; the list goes on.

If im completely honest,  im still trying to figure it all out. I’ve recently noticed a pattern with my menstrual cycle and my mood and through research, it would seem that I have also been experiencing premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD). I will be going into more detail about my experience with PMDD in a future post so stay tuned…

I feel like some people (mainly male friends) may feel as though they need to walk on eggshells with me since becoming aware of my experiences or like I no longer have resilience and a thick enough skin to have a laugh or banter the way we used to. Unfortunately, people who experience mental health related issues and speak up about it usually feel like there is a big super glued tag stuck on our foreheads telling people to STAY AWAY! 

Depression, to me, is an unseen disability that can affect ones ability to view themselves as worthy amongst other symptoms. That doesn’t mean that some people who suffer from depression do not work, do not have relationships, socialise etc.  It can affect anyone and doesn’t discriminate.

If you know anyone who is experiencing depression, it’s probably best not to treat them like an outcast. Act as you would with anyone else you care about. Invite them out, have a laugh, keep it real. If they don’t accept an invitation to socialise, don’t take it personal; it may be because they just can’t face being out at that moment or they’re having a really bad day with irrational thoughts they can’t control.
Feel free to send me your experiences of being labelled as something you’re not.
Love and light 💜

Thoughts? Feel free to comment!