Currently sat at my desk at work, my mind running a thousand mph with all the possible ideas of what my next job role should be. Whilst I’m certain about my career as a psychotherapist I’m currently confused with what jobs to apply for now whilst I study and raise my children. Being out of full time employment for almost 3 years has knocked my confidence in the workforce back for 10. My last place of work left a[Read more]
See, when I was pregnant with my first child, I read all the books about parenting and pregnancy and watched every single episode on home and health about labour and raising children in their early years. Nothing, NOTHING, truly prepared me for what it actually meant to be a mother. Now I’m not going to sit here and mull over all the moments that have made me sit and ponder about the times I have wanted to give my children[Read more]
On mothers day last year I was in one of the worse states I had ever been. Nothing and no one could shift my mood or make me feel better. I stayed in my bed and shut everyone out including my partner and children. That day was one of the key moments in realsing how bad my depression had reached. For me to not want to see to my children was a true sign that something wasnt right. With that[Read more]
Friend: “How are you hun?” Me: “I’m alright thanks, you?” …because its easier to just say i’m fine than to explain what I’m really feeling. The best way to describe what depression (for me) feels like: I get easily annoyed and irritated by the slightest turbulence (When I’m at my lowest) I feel nothing. “Meh” and “numb” are the best words for this feeling. I push people away who try to show their support. I can’t think straight, make my[Read more]
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